My friend Joan came over this afternoon and we ran five miles. It was amazingly easy. The weather was perfect. It was about 50 degrees out with no clouds at all. I live in an area that is heavily populated with runners and it’s always nice to see everyone out and about. I wasn’t particularly paying attention to how long it took us and we did stop at Ben & Jerry’s to get water and walked a little bit.
I love it when I get my long run out of the way on a Saturday. Even though running is (sometimes) very enjoyable, it’s still such a pain to have it hanging over my head all weekend. Now I can have tomorrow to do whatever. I’m planning on going to the dog park since it’s supposed to be nice and then maybe going to a pilates class at LA Fitness.
So tonight has the potential to be crazy. First of all, it’s two of my friends’ birthday. That posed sort of a problem for me because they don’t know each other so there are two different parties going on. I got invited to one first and accepted and feel bad that I can’t go to the other, but there is really no other fair way to handle it other than going to the first one that I was invited to. Anyway, it’s my friend Andrew’s 30th birthday. His girlfriend is planning this crazy surprise party. He knows that something is going on but doesn’t know what. Basically, all of his friends are meeting at a local bar while they will still be at his house. A stretch limo is coming to pick us up and we will pick him up in it. From there, we are just planning on going to a few bars, one of which will have a cake. It might be a little bit insane. But in a good way. I’m also going to try to meet up with my other birthday friend but am not sure if that will happen or not.
I should shower. I’m a sweaty mess.
I have been doing everything right and the weight just is not coming off. Seriously, for the past three weeks, I’ve been working out A LOT and trying to keep my calories around 1500 a day. I’ll admit that in the first two weeks, they were probably around 1800 instead of 1500 but I would still think that would produce some sort of weight loss. I guess not. It’s like I have been losing and gaining the same three pounds for a year.
I just haven’t been able to hit the hammer on the head (nail on the head? Some sort of carpenterish saying) of what exactly I need to change. Whenever I read articles on weight loss, it’s like do A instead of B and you’ll lose weight. Well, what if you already do A? The only thing that I can think of that might be holding me back is portion control. I try to measure things but sometimes, like at work or when Jason is cooking, I don’t.
I’ll keep on it. There is no reason not to. I mean, if I’m not getting the results that I want from doing what I’m doing, I’m definitely not going to get them if I give up. I realize that but I just want to see a little result. Just one little itsy bitsy one.
Yesterday I did lower body strength training and ran 3.5 miles. Today I did the elliptical to sort of work out the tightness in my legs. It worked a little bit. This weekend is going to be difficult diet-wise. I’m supposed to do my long run on Saturday with my friend Joan who is running the half with me. But, afterwards there is this huge surprise 30th birthday party for one of my friends and I know that will mean trouble. I need advice for handling party situations.
I just wrote that as my facebook status, Lee is blah. I don’t know why, that’s just how I feel.
So I’m really trying to stick with this 1500 calorie a day diet and I’m noticing that I’m relying a lot more on artificial sweeteners. I think a lot of the time, I just want the taste of something in my mouth (get your head out of the gutter!) and water just won’t do. I used to be pretty addicted to diet coke and broke myself of the habit, but now I feel like I’m crawling back. I have had a 20 oz diet mountain dew, some crystal light and some pepsi max today which is 3 times the amount I normally drink. I was pleased that I had finally weened myself off the diet crack, but I guess I really hadn’t.
It’s just the only way I know to keep myself from not eating. I mean, when I’m at home, I can do other things, read, play on the computer, take a bath. But what about when I’m staring at my computer at work doing some boring, menial task. The cravings hit and they hit hard and the only way to satisfy them without actually eating is to drink something with fake sugars in it.
I lost a lot of weight that way and old habits die hard. I really tried to be healthier and cut all the fake stuff out but it seemed like instead of just doing nothing, I was back to the real sugar and that was affecting my weight loss.
So, what about you? Do you do the fake stuff?
I ran 3.5 miles in 34:58 and that INCLUDED 3 minutes of walking. I am very proud of myself. Normally, I run at anywhere from a 10:00-10:30 pace so doing 3.5 miles at a 9:40 pace with the last quarter mile at a 8:00 pace was really fast for me.
Today has been a pretty good day in general. I’ve noticed that the weather in the morning totally dictates my mood for the day. When I have to take Murphy out and it’s freezing cold, it just puts me in such a pissy mood. This morning was warmer, in the 40s, and our 25 minute walk was pleasant.
I ate around 1500 calories today. This is what I ate:
Breakfast – egg sandwich with slice of 2% cheese.
Lunch – tuna salad; carrots; pickle spear; corn (yeah random)
Snack – kashi bar; 5 sliced stawberries
Dinner – carrots (while dinner was cooking); for my meal, I sauteed zucchini, tomatoes, spinach and peppers in Trader Joe’s Curry Simmer Sauce and added shrimp. I ate it with brown rice. I took a picture, but don’t feel like uploading it to Jason’s computer since my macbook is currently out of comission.
Dessert – about .75 cup of fat free Edy’s yogurt topped with some Fiber One
After workout snack – air popped popcorn
I spent virtually the entire day on my feet. I took Murphy to the dog park for about an hour, grabbed some lunch, took Murphy to Petsmart to get his nails did and signed up for training, cleaned up the puke in my car that my little car sick dog left me with, took my car to the car wash because I couldn’t get it all out, went to the gym and went to Kroger. There were also loads of laundry done sporadically throughout the day.
Whew! Busy day.
There are two things I wish I could have changed though. First of all, I was supposed to run 3.5 miles. I kind of forgot about it until I tried to run, but I have this big blister on the inside of my little toe from my 5-miler yesterday. The second I started to run, it really started to throb. I guess I could have sucked it up, but I didn’t and I did upper body weights instead. I’m kind of wondering if maybe my new shoes are too narrow in the toe box? Or maybe it was just the socks that I wore yesterday, who knows? The other thing that I didn’t do right is that I did not make a list and plan my meals for the upcoming week. I just got a bunch of random stuff at the store and know that come tomorrow, I’m not going to have any idea what to make for lunches and dinners.
I had a random dinner that I’m not going to bother to post a picture of. It consisted of zucchini sauteed in cooking spray with some diced tomatoes and fake chicken. I was trying to use up some veggies that have been in the fridge for a while.
My mom had a best friend named Bonnie. I knew her all my life. She was really more of an aunt to me even though we weren’t related. She was diagnosed with colon cancer about ten years ago and she passed away in 2000.
She was in hospice care for the last few days of her life and I remember driving my mother’s car to her house the day she died. I was listening to Sarah McLachlan’s “Hold On” pretty much on repeat. (Specifically, the one from Mirrorball) I am not sure if my mom noticed the lyrics or not:
“So now you’re sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
That you’ll be strong tomorrow and we’ll
See another day and we will praise it
And love the light that brings a smile
Across your face”
She passed away that day. I don’t think about her that often, truthfully, but when that song, and specifically that version, comes on my Ipod, it always takes me right back to driving my mother’s green Honda Accord down…I can’t remember the road..to go to her house.
I was 4.5 miles into my 5 mile run when it came on my Ipod. Bonnie never knew me as a runner; I didn’t start until several years after she passed. I thought about how proud she would have been of me. As cheesy as this sounds, I really thought that the last half mile would be for Bonnie. I cranked the treadmill up to a 8:34 minute mile and (for me) sprinted the last half mile of today’s long run.
I liked this article from Runner’s World. What do you do when you feel like quitting?
Tips For Toughing It Out