This is my fourth month of boot camp and I am officially burnt out. I am kind of wishing that I took a month off or something. I feel sore and tired but don’t seem to be getting the results that I want. I’m sick of hearing that I’m not pushing myself hard enough. I push myself to work out all the time. Why isn’t that enough? It was fun at first. Well, as fun as a boot camp workout can be. But now I find myself skipping class and just dreading it altogether. I don’t know if it’s the lack of visible results that’s getting me down or just doing the same basic exercises three days a week for fourth months.
I’m just frustrated. Why isn’t this working? Why can I still not do a fucking pushup? I just feel like I put so much effort into working out and eating healthy and I don’t get the results that I want. Yes, I’m not fat. But I’m at the very high end of a normal BMI. It’s just so frustrating sometimes. Why does this have to be so hard for me?
I saw (500) Days of Summer tonight with my friend Jaime. I liked it but found it thoroughly depressing. Although, the soundtrack is really good.
Oops, I really didn’t intend to have a pity party for myself there.