Thanks for all your responses on my previous post. I really was being too hard on myself. I actually really had a fun night and there was no reason to feel so bad about it. Unfortunately, I couldn’t really help it and was honestly very mad at myself.
I think I’m struggling a bit with depression lately. I think that’s where the guilt is stemming from. I took anti-depressants for about two years and stopped a year ago. At first, it was sort of hard to get used to life without them, but I did and felt fine. Until about two weeks ago. It’s a familiar feeling, although one I haven’t felt in a while. The signs are all there – guilt, sleeping more than normal and just a general sense of sadness. It sort of makes sense that I was upset about drinking. Alcohol, after all, is a depressant too.
I’m worried about my father. I just want his surgery to be over so I will know what’s going to happen and what my bladder-less dad will be like. I am hoping that once it’s over, a weight will be lifted off my shoulders. I have other big things coming up, but this is the only bad one and this is the one that’s stressing me out the most.
Let’s talk about funny things instead of depression now, shall we? I have two little gems.
1. Last night I was in Kroger and I noticed that their generic version of I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter is called Butter, It’s Not. I have no idea why, but I find this very funny. Speaking of which, I buy normal butter, not buttery spread.
2. I’ve been trying to get the domain inmytummy.com forever. Someone had it and let it expire and now it’s in domain limbo land where it’s waiting to be renewed or deleted. I don’t think the previous owner will renew it because there was nothing on it. I went to check the other day and it gave me a list of other suggestions including… inmyabdomen.com. Haha! What if my blog was called In My Abdomen?
Now back to your regularly scheduled food and workout talk. I have dinner plans (yes, again) tonight, so I did my workout at lunch. I downloaded a new app for my phone called ifitness. It’s really cool. It has a million different weight lifting exercises and allows you to track your progress and everything. Some of the exercises even have a little video that demonstrates the move. I did the following:
french press, 15 lbs, 3 sets of 12
standing concentration curls, 7.5 lbs, 3 sets of 12 (each side)
hammer curls, 15 lbs, 3 sets of 2
bench press, not sure of weight on machine, 3 sets of 10
lat pulldown, 50 lbs, 1 set of 10, 40 lbs, 2 sets of 12
Then I did a 2 mile run on the treadmill.
I am going to a restaurant called Portofino for dinner. My mom has been dating this guy for about 6 months and he has a conference in Atlanta so he’s taking me and Jason out to dinner. I’ve only met him one time. Hope it’s not too awkward!