In a mood

I got completely overwhelmed with the amount of things on my plate right now and literally started crying at my desk at the thought of it all. I’m really starting to question my sanity. What was I thinking? Moving and getting married in basically the same month? I’ll get it done, I know I will, but I spent a good part of the day moping. Inevitably, when I get upset about one thing, it always manifests itself into me complaining about body image issues. I know it’s not attractive. I know that Jason doesn’t want hear me complaining that I feel fat. I know this. But I do it anyway. At least once a month and usually it happens about a week before my period. PMS is a bitch, yo.

I stopped off at Kroger and picked up some chicken. I really like how my crappy Kroger has a decent organic section. I buy this Springer Mountain Organic Chicken that’s from somewhere in GA (I think) and is not really that expensive. Today I bought some sort of Indian simmer sauce and Jason cooked them up with some frozen veggies.


It was good but the sauce sort of had heat without flavor if that makes sense. I like some of the Trader Joe’s simmer sauces that I’ve tried more. But I thought I’d give it a whirl. After dinner, we went to the gym. For some reason, I haven’t been into running at all lately. Hate that. It’s kind of like if I’m not training for a race, I never have the motivation to run. I did do the arc trainer for 30 minutes and then an ab routine.

These layoffs at work have really gotten to me, I think. Not so much that I am worried that I’m next, although that too, but the work environment just feels weird without these two women there.

I think I will feel better tomorrow. Don’t mind me.


10 responses to “In a mood

  1. Oh Lee, we all get in these funks, you KNOW I do time to time from reading my blog! 😉 You definitely do have a lot on your plate right now. Reach out to people and ask for help. Even if it’s asking someone to help you make welcome baskets for your wedding (totally just an example). Just knowing that other people are there to help might take some of the pressure off of you. Hang in there and remember that this is an EXCITING time in your life and you’ll never get to do it again. Try and enjoy it. 🙂

  2. I’m moving and getting married in the same month too! ahhhhhhhhhh!!! We’ll make it through though! It’s an exciting time, right?

  3. I get the same way a week before my period, PMS is a bitch! My boyfriend usually pretends he doesn’t know me that week. Hang in there though, you’ll get through everything just fine!

  4. I think it’s completely understandable to feel that way, what with all you have going on. Plus, I know the stress of layoffs. My company has laid off thousands of people in the past few years, and it’s very scary! I hope you have a better day today and start feeling better about things. 🙂

  5. angieinatlanta

    Lee, getting overwhelmed is definitely understandable. I feel crazy right now and I’m not even moving! I don’t know how you’re doing it…but I know you’ll get it done!

    I always feel nasty leading up to the time of the month. It’s the worst. Just remember it will pass!

  6. I think this time of year is especially stressfull for everyone. But topping it all off with a move and a wedding must be stomach churning.

  7. Aw, feel better Lee! You have sooo much happening right now, it’s completely normal to feel overwhelmed. btw, love the pic of Murphy 🙂

  8. I know exactly what you mean about body image issues popping up when you have a rough day! That is what I experienced yesterday and am having a hard time fighting this week. I HATE this week! Sorry…

    Hopefully we will both start feeling better and handling what’s on our plates soon. Thinking of you!

  9. I’ve been there. You know I have. Got engaged; got custody of boys; house hunted; bought a house; moved; got a dog; and got married in 9 months. The best thing you can do for yourself is breathe.

    I know – everyone says that right. Seriously, take some time for yourself if you can. You will get through it and look back and go *meh, it wasn’t that bad*.


  10. I’m sorry you are having such a rough time, you do have an insane amount on your plate right now and you are completely justified in being overwhelmed/stressed/etc.

    Anyway, just think about all the wonderful things that will be in your life when you get this crappy stage…new house, new husband… 🙂